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Kedele: Disney Style by GabiSaKuRa

I've decided to try this again since the last one didn't go through. Original composed on Aug 23, 2014, 1:56:50 AM. For an attempt at a...

Afternoon on a Hill by GabiSaKuRa

Let me start by telling you what does work about this piece. The style and tone of the concept perfectly represents the inspiration you...


This piece is indeed a dark and thrilling read. I don't think I've come across a writing piece this thrilling here on dA to date. The v...

Manifesting Epiphanies by Identifyed-Khaos

I absolutely adore this shot and I completely agree with your description. This shot precisely captures and conveys what you wish to de...

Retribution by Identifyed-Khaos

You know, I really love your gallery. Your photos are captured well, in focus, very brightly coloured - just all around magnificent. Ho...

Fast4Families by GabiSaKuRa

Vision: Let me start by saying that you started out with a very strong idea of what you wanted to present, and judging by the final pie...

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If you haven't already and might be interested, check out the galleries of my sister Sarahfina-Rose and my father Shariyat. They're a bit under appreciated but produce some decent work, in my opinion. Have a look:

The Son of a Shepherd Progress 2 by Sarahfina-Rose Merida Progress by Sarahfina-Rose Moja Zydowska Krew- Mike Wazowski for Asante Final by Sarahfina-Rose Rough Sketch of Mononoke 2 by Sarahfina-Rose Berlyn Konrad Giovanna Concept by Sarahfina-Rose Musashi I by Sarahfina-Rose

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Alter Ego by Shariyat
Reflection by Shariyat

Mature Content

The Goddess of Destruction Detail 1 by Shariyat


My cousin lone-bean takes some acceptable photographs as well:

Neighborhood Sunset by lone-bean Road to the City of Gold by lone-bean Streaks of Gold by lone-bean Surrender to Purple by lone-bean Fire Dust by lone-bean Leave by lone-bean Walk Along by lone-bean Sideshot by lone-bean River Rocks by lone-bean Raspberry Skies by lone-bean Retreat by lone-bean Falling for Autumn by lone-bean Takeover by lone-bean Laying With the Leaves by lone-bean

Also, you're more than welcome to check out rensuchan's gallery:

On the Hunt by rensuchan Lady Merida by rensuchan How can I Change My Fate... by rensuchan Ready to Fire by rensuchan

Feel free to check out Queen-Asante/AsktheSonofaShepherd's gallery, one of my very good friends. She's pretty amazing:

Elisa Gibbs by Queen-Asante Ezeke again by Queen-Asante Elisa Gibbs in EEnE Style by Queen-Asante Do We Look Like Love-Birds? by AsktheSonofaShepherd Ivy Ezayre, Age 12 by Queen-Asante May Kanker by Queen-Asante Nazz by Queen-Asante 43 by Queen-Asante RUN FOR YOUR LIVES by AsktheSonofaShepherd Bodies Are Not Sexual by Queen-Asante Realistic Etnad by Queen-Asante Wings of Crippled Glass by Queen-Asante The Moon is a Harsh Mistress by Queen-Asante Run Like the Wind Etnad by Queen-Asante

Furthermore, another talented acquaintance of mine, ZawArt. This dude's talent is insane (and yet, he compliments my mediocre abilities ):

Even Death by ZawArt Khaleesi by ZawArt Hazel by ZawArt Shaman by ZawArt Annie In The Forest by ZawArt Women 4 by ZawArt DreamDust by ZawArt Kat by ZawArt Odrobinka by ZawArt Azyriel by ZawArt Magda by ZawArt Chrismas by ZawArt Mother by ZawArt Rose by ZawArt Gosia The Witch by ZawArt Witchcraft by ZawArt KatieBloo by ZawArt Klaudia by ZawArt Funeral Wooden Triptych by ZawArt

Lastly, another artist acquaintance with superb pencil work and other traditional/digital media, Felt-heart:

.:Dulin Aran:. by Felt-heart Passing of Light by Felt-heart The Last Rose of Summer by Felt-heart The House of Elrond by Felt-heart The Grayhoud by Felt-heart The Wild Rover by Felt-heart Serenity by Felt-heart Hawthorn Tree by Felt-heart Elvan Palace by Felt-heart The Black Citadel by Felt-heart Nymph by Felt-heart Antoinette by Felt-heart Fortune by Felt-heart Marauders Studying by Felt-heart Alice by Felt-heart Puppets by Felt-heart Robin Hood and Maid Marian by Felt-heart Traveling Under the Stars by Felt-heart

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Lost Amidst the Desert by JDNight
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My identical twin sister, Sarahfina Rose/Sarahfina-Rose, Chloride, Arizona, Wednesday, 13 Jan. 2016

My second time to Chloride since Dec. 2012, sadly shot one day before Alan Rickman's untimely death, although I had not stupidly realised that the date was accidentally set one day behind when I switched out the battery (I do that more often than I'd like to admit). The lighting was, truthfully relatively flat that day, but with a little bit of colour correction, one can hardly tell.





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Sarah of Chloride by JDNight
Sarah of Chloride
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Also uploaded here to my Flickr

For more photos, please visit my Flickr

My identical twin sister, Sarahfina Rose/Sarahfina-Rose, Chloride, Arizona, Wednesday, 13 Jan. 2016

My second time to Chloride since Dec. 2012, sadly shot one day before Alan Rickman's untimely death, although I had not stupidly realised that the date was accidentally set one day behind when I switched out the battery (I do that more often than I'd like to admit). The lighting was, truthfully relatively flat that day, but with a little bit of colour correction, one can hardly tell.





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I don't exactly ''stan'' for this destructive pairing but they were pretty cute as kids.

Conceptual Sketcher | Amateur Photographer | Writer-in-Progress | Transgender | Asexual | Asperger's & OCD

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14 Jan. 2016. Alan Rickman Passes At the Age of 69 | Potter Alumni React To The Untimely Passing Of Alan Rickman | Alan Rickman Had Been Suffering From Pancreatic Cancer for Less Than 5 Months Before Death

''The whole universe depends on everything fitting together just right. If one piece busts, even the smallest piece... the entire universe will get busted.''

Beasts of the Southern Wild (2012)



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“Because we are still conditioning people in this country and, indeed, all over the globe to the myth of white superiority. We are constantly being told that we don’t have racism in this country anymore, but most of the people who are saying that are white. White people think it isn’t happening because it isn’t happening to them.''

“I’m sorry, but…I cannot shed tears for a young white female in this exercise who knows that this is an exercise, who knows that this is temporary, who knows that she is getting one hour of college credit for being here. I’m sorry, but I have to save my sympathy and empathy for those who have to go through something much worse than this every single day.”

—Jane Elliott

"In this country, ‘American’ means white. Everybody else has to hyphenate."
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Current Residence: Across the Unnamed River Lies Two Sides of the Moon Where Reality & Fantasy is Blurred, Otherwise the In-Between Nightmare
Favourite genre of music: Celtic, Movie/Video Game Soundtracks + Movie Trailer Soundtracks, Indie Rock, Rock 'n' Roll, Soul Rock, some Musicals, 60s 70s 80s Classics, just about anything unique
Favourite photographer: Steve McCurry, Elena Kalis, Nadia Moro, Sally Mann, Bill Henson, David Hamilton, Mary Ellen Mark, Jaap Buitendijk
Favourite style of art: Realism, Surrealism, Other
Favourite deviant Artists: Queen-Asante, Sarahfina-Rose, Shariyat, lone-bean, Dark-Crescent-Moon, Felt-heart, ZawArt, rensuchan
Favourite Fictional Character(s): The Outcasts, the Misunderstood, the Flawed, the Rebels, the Calculating, the Snarky, the Survivors, the Tragic - Jean Valjean (The Boss), Agrin (Turtles Can Fly), Severus Snape, Luna Lovegood, Hermione Granger, Katniss Everdeen, Rue, Lisbeth Salander, Lisa Rowe, Eric (Phantom of the Opera), Elphaba Thropp (Gregory Maguire's book, not the crap musical), Heathcliff, Jane Eyre, Carrie White, Frankenstein's Monster (or ''Adam,'' Mary Shelley's book - not the movies), Atticus Finch, Mr Darcy, Cassie Ainsworth, Franky Fitzgerald, Princess Nausicaa (Hayao Miyazaki), Eeyore, George Lundgren (formerly Nordgren), Ivy Walker, Gabriel Velvet Moss (created by MrsDecepticonQueen & Dark-Crescent-Moon, respectively), Briony Tallis, Hanna Heller (Joe Wright's Hanna), Sansa & Arya Stark, Unique Adams, Hushpuppy (Beasts of the Southern Wild), India Stoker, Helga Pataki, Mojo Jojo, HIM, Marla Singer (Fight Club), Mathilda (Léon), Soraya; Wolrah & Etnad (created by Queen-Asante, respectively)
Favourite Film (All Time): Turtles Can Fly (2004)



Inspirational Person(s) (Fictional, Legend, Dead or Alive): beckie0, Marina Golbahari, Joan of Arc, Hua Mulan, JK Rowling, Bahman Ghobadi, Nelofer Pazira, Sacheen Littlefeather, Janis Joplin, Laura Nyro, Brandon Teena, David Reimer, Jane Elliott (''blue eyes/brown eyes'' exercise), Deepa Mehta, Malala Yousafzai, Janet Mock
Personal Quote(s): ''The creative adult is the child who survived.''
''Life is a nail in the anus.''
''Humans... we're the Creator's amazing fuck-ups.''


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I didn't ever plan on making this public (only a few close confidants have been aware of this), but I feel now is the time I must say something, however small and ineffective it may be.



In the last several weeks or so, I've been receiving numerous comments, notes, etc. from people asking me to do stuff, whatever the reason is, for them (JazzBerryTigerCandy, I definitely don't mean you; I promise to get back to you within the week). Being too selfless and empathetic towards people is definitely one of my biggest character downfalls. Plenty of the time, I don't know how to say no, extremely similar in ways to the character of Wilt from Craig McCraken/CMcC's Foster's Home For Imaginary Friends. However, this time around, I need to put my foot down and speak up. For over a year, my obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder, something I've had since I was about 11 or 12, has gone through the roof (indeed, OCD is a very real disorder that affects my way of living on a daily basis in the worst of ways and is not synonymous with being a perfectionist as social media has incorrectly been abusing it in recent years). In turn, it has brought on clinical depression (my previous therapist, Sabrina was more than concrete certain with her diagnosis) - the third time I've dealt with depressive symptoms in my 22 years from the first time when I was 11 1/2 and had attempted suicide, the second time when I was 14 1/2 whilst I was dealing with a string of issues, including an unexpected diagnosis of mononucleosis and Asperger's syndrome. The difference is: this time around, I'm not suicidal. I'm grateful for that at least. Though I'm on meds and am receiving therapy. The meds had worked for about three months - from July to mid October. In late October, the effects started wearing off.

Since then, shit has hit the ceiling real hard and fast and life in general has become increasingly overwhelming. Things of note: My baby cousin, Athena Rose who was born seven weeks premature on 22 May 2014 was unfortunately brought into this world with some of the worse physical disabilities that could afflict a child; she's a strong kid for having battled through two heart surgeries since her birth. This past Thursday, 14 Jan. she was meant to go in for a cleft palate surgery and had been at the hospital from 4 am to that afternoon with her single father and my favourite maternal uncle; however due to an infuriating mix-up with her doctors, her surgery date has been rescheduled. Perhaps, it was a blessing in disguise in many ways since on that same morning, one of the most brilliant actors and badass human beings known to man, Alan Rickman unexpectedly passed away from a short battle with pancreatic cancer, aged so young at just 69 leaving behind his wonderful family, an expansive group of friends and co-workers, and a strongly devoted audience from his approximately 43 or so years of a fantastic stage and screen career. Yes, he may have been ''merely an actor.'' True, I didn't know him personally, but as an artist and the type of compassionate person he was known to be, he meant a lot to me and I can't say I didn't idolize him, even just a little bit. Many people feel the same way, so I'm precisely not alone.



In the last three days since his untimely death from shock to denial to it finally sinking in, it has only conflicted with my depression in worse ways than it was before, yet this isn't to say my mental state is directly related to it. His death has created a lot of unnecessary anxiety as I strongly relate it to my Papa, or ''Nonno'' technically in Italian (my maternal grandfather), who is about the same age and has been fighting leukemia for the last several years. As the news surfaced, I immediately thought, ''That could be him... That could be us.'' Leukemia may not be quite as much as a sneaky, merciless fucker as pancreatic cancer (as with pancreatic cancer, most people don't know they have it until its well into its advanced stages as the symptoms are utterly undetectable, at most appearing as minor stomach problems or flu-like, and even post-diagnosis, the survival rate is incredibly low; rapid decline from then on is persistent and plenty succumb to it within just 3.5 months whereas Rickman was lucky he made it to nearly 5), though like all cancers, the survival rate isn't exactly high either.

In other words, due to all of this bullshit, my mental stability is gradually deteriorating little by little. Crying spells are far more common these days and to simply put it, I need to worry less about other people and take care of myself. I hope that's understandable.

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Like the barn owl, thank you for keeping 'a faithful vigil' - in your case on my page!  :owlnoid:  
Your interest and the fave are greatly appreciated Kat    I love deviantART!
  
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